It is so fragile

As what i have quoted on my title. It is so fragile. Everything in this world is fragile. Be it relationship, friendship, kinship etc it is just a fine line in between. U can choose to protect it or mess it till the line is no longer there.

I truely came to understand one sentence, "Certain thing in life, you cant make it known to yr ex or person that you wanted to let the person know." Coz you will not know what will happen after the person who known abt it. The friendship may not be there anymore or both of them may not even contact each other. I truely understand how it feel..... It's better to hide everything or better is forget everything.

I shldnt have do it. I shldnt be so frank to the person. I shldnt!! It seem like i the one who destroy everything. Serve mi right!! I deserve it!! At times, i reali ask myself, Pearlina are you reali that stupid and navie? So many thing happen in this few years, didnt you learnt lesson from all these? Y are you so damn idiot!!
What the use of treasure fren so much? What the point? Hw do we define friend? Hw do we define activity partner,lovers and domestic partnership? IT IS SO DAMN COMPLICATED!! I reali tired. I want to let go everything.... i dont want to torture by all this. At times, i thought of cancel off my hp line, and live in the way that i want. Only friends who want to be in contact with mi, may juz call my hse. For those who dont wish to, can just forget abt mi. I just nobody. Doesnt matter whether my appearance make any difference to anyone.

Last but not least, there is something i want to say, live happily and hope thing goes smooth for you. There isnt any wrong tht you got high expectation. There isnt right or wrong when it comes to certain things.

A Raining Wednesday

I back to write something on my blog. A day whereby i suppose to off but i still need to back to work coz of implant case whereby other staff dont know how to run as a running nurse during implant as well as my colleague signal when she need one to do something. Coz doing implant is totally need to be clean, whereby nurses and doctors gloves need to be free from thing that are not autoclave before. Bt alas, today no implant is done due to plan change. Patient had a tooth that is slanted whereby it will block the way the implant screw to place in.

I must thank my friend who help mi to configure my laptop during last weekend. Thank dear. Thank for helping and even install a whole lot songs be it oldies or pop, i appreciate so much. You add life to my laptop. Once again thank you. Will buy sweets for you the next time when we meet up again to put in your car.

Sometime i really hope some one will come and say some words to motivate mi staying on my current workplace. Be it a tap on my shoulder and say; Pearlina, you did your best, doesnt matter if in between thing goes wrong, learn from it. Or simply juz a warm hug from my friends without saying anything from their mouth. That would be enough! Some time i feel like a idiot when it come to work. Or i totally no mood to work at all.

Shall end here.